Well I guess it had to happen some time...I'm getting a serious case of pre-wedding nerves. There's so much running through my head that I don't know where to start. I guess it's best to start with the little things first.
My Mum has just decided to tell me that she doesn't think the bridesmaids' dresses go with my dress - why didn't she say this 5 months ago when we bought them? I think they look fine but now I'm not so sure.
My fiance is getting stressed about having to make a short speech to thank the bridesmaids - they're only 5 years old they really won't mind what he says. He isn't very good at public speaking so I can't really blame him for being nervous, i'm so glad I'm not expected to say anything.
I'm most worried about the first dance, I've got 2 left feet and I never do more than bop around on the spot. Somehow I don't think that will quite work with all my guests looking on. What if I trip over the dress?
Then the bigger thing which I have no one to talk to about except my fiance, our decision to have a CDD based marriage. I was convinced this was the right decision but suddenly I'm scared. I think it is the thought that in a month's time I might be over my husband's (!!!) knee getting a spanking. now that I know more about the spankings I see that it's not just one slap but then again I know that there are things I need to be more disciplined about.
So as you can see I am a big ball of confusion and hoping that somebody will offer some kind words of reassurance.
Gee x
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Dear Gee,
Yes, it is a big step. And I won't try to fool you by saying the spankings won't hurt. They do. But what is a blessing, is that after the spanking, as you begin to make those changes that you and he have agreed upon, you will find your heart opening up to your husband in a whole new way. You begin to find your spot in the Father's grand plan. You will begin to have a feeling of gratitude to your husband and the Father for helping you become the woman you were created to be. Being submitted and obedient does not mean that you stop being you. You keep all your hopes and dreams, you keep your thoughts and beliefs, you just find better ways to express them. You'll feel yourself grow and stretch and that is pure joy. Plus, looking at your husband and seeing the pride in his eyes for the you being the woman you are is a gift that no other can ever top.
G-d bless you dear.
Sue
Hi Gee,
I can't really comment on your wedding jitters as my husband and I got engaged Dec 1 and married Dec 31! (1983...) No time for jitters!
As for CDD, I'm envious! After almost 23 years of marriage, and 20 years of following the Lord, I was finally convicted by the Holy Spirit of my disrespectful and domineering attitude towards my beloved husband. So, I approached him with the suggestion of bringing CDD to our marriage - first and foremost, that I would submit to his headship, as Scripture teaches and secondly, that I would welcome his physical discipline as a method to enforce his biblical authority. It has made a tremendous difference in our marriage, both in my attitude and behavior as well as his. I love submitting to him! I am finally serving him and deferring to him and he is cherishing me more than ever. I believe that God will bless your marriage as you daily submit to your husband and both of you daily submit to God.
Blessings,
Suzanne
If you are following God's will for your life, then there is nothing to be nervous about. I know that doesn't help and to be honest, I think a little nervousness does us good. But trust in the Lord and all will be well. As far as your side of the DD equation I cant help you with that!
Mike
Thank you for all your comments, it means so much to have support and people to turn to. I hope you will stick around as the wedding approaches.
Had a difficult time last night which I'm going to try and write about properly today.
Gee x
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